Stumped...

Oh dear...

Yeah....Oh dear...you heard that from me...

Just when I was recovering from this lupus flare...more work start to pile on top of me before I could even react...

My first reaction? Well...I've decided to dump my EoM aside already although tomorrow's the submit date for that 2nd draft...Well...into the trash bin it goes...Sorry!! Was not in any good condition in doing that too....Can't understand what my tutor actually wanted me to improve on as well...:)

Next came the Thanksgiving audition...Well...apparently our I/C for the Thanksgiving Performance for Oldham Hall was not that focused on his job...heard quite a few of complaints made by those who came for the audition..(I was the judge....And I'm not supposed to listen to such things as I'm not the I/C) But now...conditions got no better...He didn't actually gave much preparation for the audition and it was supposed to be made as close to the actual Thanksgiving Performance because we would be welcoming a person of great honour...No microphones? Why everything was done in the last minute? Luckily, the participants...friends actually were happy enough to do the audition....I can't imagine if they were fussy about all the details...

Until someone just have to say...Why so serious? It's only an audition...Hey! If you're not serious in this audition..I could just leave you out from the performance right? Because you're not appreciating the "walk-through" privellege you are enjoying now being in that club...

Then my class just have to make add in some more wonders into my life...Heard that they did not do their chemistry tutorial and made my civics tutor pissed off...Hey! I did mine alright? And now I have to suffer because of them as well? Please...I desire to keep up with all these work...But my body keeps telling me No..No...No...Can't you at least give me a breather?

Well listen here people! There is no way I'm gonna allow myself fall sick again and falter behind everyone else...YOU CREATE THE PROBLEM...YOU SOLVE IT YOURSELF...ONE CALL...ONE PLIGHT FOR HELP IN WHATEVER...I DON' CARE!!

Sorry guys...It's time that junjun here have to think for himself now...I never did before...And now my body is taking the toll at every sacrifice...

Going down memory lane...What have I lost for other's gains?

Hours I could actually spend on sipping Coke while watching TV...But there was I writing essays for juniors...Answering questions via SMS...

Energy I could use on doing the things I want...Basketball...Computer games...Guitaring...Yet there was I burning myself standing in friends' tasks and responsibilities they were supposed to do...

I lost friends I actually knew them most...But there was I trying to keep strangers happy because others just have "no profession" in being friendly...

I lost my family who could be my bolster to my pain...Yet I could not lift my lips to whisper a word to them because I was repeatedly torn away from them just to "contribute for the bigger community"

I lost my life...

And SLE caught it...

Is this the challenge I'm supposed to face now?

After everything is lost in Malaysia...

Now I'm losing the one and only thing I treasured most...

My body...

The body I dare claim to be perfect..

Without faults nor errors...

I thank God...For the first time in my life...

Sincerely...

For giving me this body...

The body that help me achieve what I wanted up till now...

Although at the end of the road...

Everything dissipates...

But with this same body...

Weakened...Battered....Lethargic...

I will continue on...

Even if work starts to pierce me...

Even if I would succumb to stress...

Even if you threathen to take my life!

I'm not afraid anymore...

I'm ready...

It's an unfair fight...

But I will turn the tables...

At the cost of everything around me...

I'm not regretting this...

You should be...

And I'm glad I have my family supporting me all the way...

Bless them always...