Leaving dilemma

It's been a while since I last blogged, minus those ye' olde' poetry. Kinda bored nowadays because of tons of homework, PC games, tv, and yes, more homework.

3 months have passed since I've walked into Form 6, and now I'm starting to get accustomed to the environment already. As always since primary years, the study-slobber-sleep machine routine gets started Mondays to Fridays, dawn to dusk. Ho-hum, how I wished I could leave from this place, I once thought, 3 months ago.

Now, I had my chance. Singapore, finally! Hooray!! Now we're talking about the cool city! No more short, or rather, bald hair. No more yucky school uniforms. No more chasing for some stupid co-curricular post for some measly points to go to some measly universities. Heck, I'm in one of the best junior colleges ASEAN has to offer!!

But now, I'm terribly stuck with this horrible situation. Yeah, scowl me funny for calling this I'm-going-to-Singapore odyssey horrible. Friends who've knew me, you've all know I can be one hell of a playboy back in our secondary years. Well, have to admit it, I was. Now, when everything is getting better for me with her, I have to leave hometown to further my studies, to pave my own way for my dreams.

"But hey! You'll find a way to solve that right? I mean, you always have a solution," My imato-chan told me that only last night. *Sigh*, truth be told, not a clue. Even one of my friends is having the too-distant-how-to-love dilemma. Things, so far, is not going well for them, maybe. But I really don't want this to ever happen to me, especially when I'm gonna get her something special on her birthday. No, not this way.

So, if anyone who read this, could you at least give a suggestion? Not whether I stay or leave, but rather how to keep this relation with her going strong and well. Thanks.