Halfway through Promotional Examinations...So far...

Just finished Economics today..
It was sure a howler...
Could not imagine that I could actually write 24 pages in the space of 2 hours and 45 minutes...
But I think more people could write more in that space of time..
Well...At least I managed to do that with my hand cramp all the time..
Yeah...I did not apply for extra time due to my medical condition...

I decided to go through this promotional exam just like any other normal student..
No whines...no cries from me...
Just plain me carrying a disease going through this...

Guess it is because of pride and all about that dignity stuff..
Speaking of pride and dignity...
I was a taken aback when some of my friends actually go to such distance to find out questions that care coming out in this promos...
They even prepared their own script of answers...
And brag about writing a good number of pages for their essay...

Part of the blame goes to the lecturers..
They had a lecture specially to give tips to students over here on the coming promos..
I did not attend the lecture because I was sick..
And I am damn proud of it..
Because I wrote 24 pages, 2 essays and 1 case study without relying on teacher's tips..
Because I refrained myself from egging on friends to find out about the leaks...
I'm proud of myself no matter whatever my results will show..

I see no integrity in doing such mindless act...
Guess people would do just about anything to scrape off with an 'A'...

There is nothing to brag about...
I don't even care if you beat me in Econs or not..
Because I did it with my own effort...
Not by hoping for lecturers for leakages...

Sorry...If you think you wanna compare your results with mine..
You will never reach the level I'm at now...
You will never fare well under exam conditions...

Ah yes...
Exam conditions does remind me of a few more things to comment about..
It can really change a person and also how they perceive you...
I realised today that my classmates actually were not that caring after all...
They are merely back stabbers who care less about my condition...

Claiming that I'm always off somewhere mugging and being a snob...
When I mean all my classmates...I really mean ALL OF THEM..
Today..
I found out that my existence did not really matter them..
Even a warm "hi" from me is returned with blank stares...

And when did they approach me?
When they wanted to make sure China had the largest real GDP...

Some classmates they are...
It is amazing how good chatterboxes they can be..
But yet could not utter a word in front of me..
Am I a freak to you?

I'm disappointed with them...
Especially him...

Oh yeah...
They never intended to put me into their picture..
Going to McDonalds for lunch eh?
I can't even eat a thing from there...

For crying out loud..
You're telling all our tutors how worried you guys were about my condition..
And here you are being discriminant towards me...

Such hypocrites you guys are...
And I dare say I expect worse from my classmates...
When the results come out...

Heck with the results...
I'm having troubles coming to school in perfect health...
And you wanna compare results with me?
Dream on..
I'm never telling you my results...

I don't even care if my classmates are reading this now...
Because I no longer love or hate my class..
NO feelings at all...

Cold stares you give me...
Icy stares you'll get from me...
Goodbye guys...
I've got a dream to catch...
You continue on dreaming...